FEELING:  bummed out

wooooow. i've been under very much pressure lately and it's like everyone is pushing me to do this, do that.. it's like i let people run all over me and sometimes that's something i can't control. why do i let people do that to me? maybe because i'm such a nice person and i don't want anything leading to another. there are just some things that i can't explain but there is nothing i can do about it because to be truthful, what more can i do? i sound like a drama queen right now but i'm just saying what's on my mind but other words i'm doing pretty good on the safe side. i miss my bebz =[ it's like i haven't seen him in forever.. actually it's been two days lolz but still that's a long time for me. i love him deeply, he's an inspiration to me and i'm glad i have him with him. soo yea. there are other people that i don't see anymore like my little posse i used to chill with in the summer, what happen guys? don't call me anymore? it's okay, maybe this summer our moments will happen again.. and have many more memories so get ready but let's just concentrate on school work and whatever we have to go through now, like we said there is plenty of time to hang out.

today's plans:

+ go to school =[
+ pick my mom at work
+ drive to my bebz house
+ sleep over with my bebz =)

i love you james | may 28, two thousand three